*sigh*
i am about to leave for my WW meeting soon. i don’t really want to go. i don’t feel like there is going to be anything to show for this week….again. i don’t feel any different. Except that i feel frustrated because i note down what i eat every day, i have been doing my steps and my arms exercises and apart from the soreness in my thighs and upper arms i feel no change.
i know what it is. i am not ‘dieting’ i am eating pretty much the same things i usually eat, the only difference is i put it in my WW tracker….that’s not going to cause me to lose weight. The claim that i don’t have to be on a diet and can still eat the foods i love is not true. Because i can’t, not if i want to lose weight.
Time to go…….more later.
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Back now and i really don’t want to talk about it. But…..
All the hard work i felt i was putting in this week and nothing to show for it. i am so bummed about this. One of the staff talked to me and asked what i have been doing and i told her i have been keeping good track of my food intake, i have added exercise and still nothing. She asked if i am keeping track of and using my activity points as well as all of my weekly allowance. i haven’t been because i felt like it is too much food! She said that if i have added exercise to my routine and am not getting enough energy from my food my body will hold onto fat because it will feel like it is being deprived. So soon though??? She also said i need to be very precise and weigh and measure my portions. Later everyone was talking about substitutes for things like fries and yummy things like that. Yeah, like having a salad instead of fries isn’t going to make me feel like I’m being deprived and am on a *gasp* diet.
Whatever.
i am feeling very down on myself right now, i guess i have been for a couple of days. i feel old, bald, fat and white trailer trashish and i want some serious chocolate. i think it would be better if i just go to bed.
