LP and challenge – O/our journey

As i predicted today was a rather melancholy feeling day. Especially when this morning my oldest and her beau exchanged their little tokens of love and there was smooching involved. i told her beau that they have now officially had one more Valentine’s Day together than LP and i. LP did have some lovely roses delivered to me and the tears just wouldn’t stop. i am not normally a flower person because they fade away. But when LP sends me flowers something in me just melts. i arranged my flowers in a pretty vase i have and they now grace my dinning room table so i can see them.

After school was over it was rubbed in my face further by a whispered request to play chauffeur so that the teen lovebirds could go out for their first Valentine’s dinner. So i drove and they sat in back and i let them have their music playing and i ignored their conversation. i think they were surprised when i pulled up to their chosen restaurant (okay it was a pizza joint!) and told them i would stay close and just to call me when they were done. i saw no reason to tag along. So i pulled around to the back of the parking lot and sat reading a good book until the girl called.

It was actually rather nice. Sometimes just being out of the house is good for me. So tonight as i drove in i was aware of the sunsetting on my left and the way the bright oranges lit the trees on my right. i wanted my camera so i could take a picture for my folder of painting ideas, but my digi photos never come out right. Then as i sat waiting with my book i saw a woman whose body type has been stalking me lately. It didn’t dawn on me until tonight. The first woman i met with this look was at a few gatherings of a lesbian social group i was once involved in. That was a while back. The second woman was someone i have never met, but we exchanged a few messages in MySpace and for a while she was on my friends list. Then came a woman who is a crossing guard at my son’s school, and tonight a stranger walking in front of my van and into the pizza parlor. They aren’t young and gorgeous women, all of them are nearing the end of their 40’s and could almost be described as ‘ruggedly handsome’ if they were male. Their hair is all near the same shade and style, a darker blonde shorter shaggy look. They all seemed to have a kind of toughness about them, kind of a biker feel. So tonight it suddenly dawned on me that i have been seeing this ‘woman’ for a long time and there must be a reason.  What other reason could there be but that she is meant to become a character for me to write about? There must be the wealth of the sunset and this woman who has been ’stalking’ my subconscious for a while.

All in all it was an inspirational evening….and that, for me, leads to other ‘inspiring’ thoughts. It always happens that way. My muse just kind of turns me on when she strikes…..i just wish LP were here to benefit from it  *grins*