The porno in my head
LP and i have often talked about there being no such thing as a good porno. i guess what we would consider good wouldn’t be considered porn. It’s really all in the eye of the beholder just like beauty. We want a story and a plot and decent acting as well hot sexy scenes. Why can’t we have our cake and eat it too?? i have half way joked that i would love to produce a porno. i could write the screenplay and then we could audition the actors (are there any porn stars who can actually act??) and then we could see what happens. i think that if i were to win the lottery that would be something i would want to do, just for the fun of it! i bet that the money put into the thing would be earned back in no time and then some.
i guess this thought comes from the porno that’s been running off and on in my head all afternoon. It’s been one of those days. Probably all the talk with LP earlier about toys and making our own and what we, personally, would like from our toys. my mind became firmly implanted in the gutter and it has been there every since.
i have always had an active fantasy life. It’s always been a way for me to enjoy things that i either can’t have, won’t do for real, or don’t get enough of in real life. It’s something i have done for so long that it just comes naturaly to me. In fact i find it odd when i learn that not everyone has fantasies, not what i consider fantasies. When i was married i asked the husband what some of his fantasies were in an attempt to spice things up. The blank look i received from him should have been a good indication that there was no hope for that part of our relationship, which started going downhill before the honeymoon was even over. It still never occured to me that he might be more of the norm than i was.
i like the way my mind works though. It keeps me entertained and gives me an outlet for things that just wouldn’t fit in my life for one reason or another. Sometimes though i wonder if it doesn’t get in the way of actually going for things i would like to make reality. i have expressed to LP before that some things are just better left to the fantasy realm. But sometimes, maybe, fantasies are meant to be brought into the real world and explored. Today’s feature fantasy, playing on the big screen in my head, is mostly of the keep it to myself variety. Not really much question about that, today at least. But how does a person know for sure what’s better left alone and what to try to make reality?
