i’m starting to hate Mondays
So i was looking forward to tonight, thinking that i’d have something good to report. maybe not as good as last week because a couple of meals weren’t as good as they should have been this week. But i stayed under my points so it shouldn’t have been that bad. i was thinking even part of a pound would be alright. i had no idea that i would get there andall of last weeks progress would be lost plus some. i just don’t get it. my exercise increased, i was good on my points, maybe i wasn’t so good on drinking my water but that shouldn’t have had anything to do with it.
It is so tempting to just throw up my hands and quit, but i don’t want to. There are too many reasons to keep at it. i have to keep reminding myself of them this evening, playing them over and over in my head so i can remember why i want to do it, the benefits i’ll get.
Maybe it’s my age, maybe i’m just not getting enough of the kind of exercise that will burn the calories fast enough, i can’t be retaining water again already – well not for that reason anyway. i just don’t know. Maybe i need to start walking, even if it’s just up and down the hallway at first.
i am really bummed now. i feel like i am wasting LP’s money and Her faith that i can do this. i just want to go to bed.
