Procrastinating
i am so easily distracted, but part of it is that i just couldn’t think of a thing to write here. So i was over at this site http://icanhascheezburger.com/ looking at hillarious pictures of cats and some other things and i couldn’t stop looking! i laughed so hard i gave myself a bit of a headache! my kids think i am nuts….they could be right.
i just have trouble focusing my mind some days and coming up with something worth putting down here. i have considered just skipping it, especially tonight, but i am supposed to post every night. At least i can get that much right.
i need to shut my brain off actually, it’s not that there’s nothing in there right now it’s that there’s too much and i can’t single things out and make sense of them. And really, right now i wonder what the point would be anyway. What i need to do is just go to bed and sleep it off. i hate reality sometimes. Maybe that’s my problem. i can’t enjoy real things because everything is so much better in my little fantasy world in my head. Maybe that’s why chat rooms are so full. People are just tired of trying to find fulfillment in their real lives because they can never really have it, because in their real lives other people are involved. And no one is ever completely compatible are they? Early in our relationship i said to LP that familiarity would breed contempt. i think now that contempt is too strong a word, maybe complacency or indifference would be a better term. In my chatroom experiences it is easier to cut loose and have fun with people i don’t know very well and who don’t know intimately personal details about me. i guess it’s an exchange of sorts. The more you get to know a person the more you trade those carefree fun times for normal day to day stuff. Don’t get me wrong, i would go to the person who knows me inside out when i really need someone to depend on rather than someone who knows next to nothing about me. i just don’t think it’s fair that one seems to be sacrificed for the other. This has been a topic LP and i have discussed at length on more than one occasion, one of those chasing the tail sorts of topics….round and round and round and never really getting anywhere with it. Where is there to get? *sigh* Either way leaves something to be desired.
