It was so long ago
In conversation recently LP brought up something that i hadn’t thought of in so long. Someone that in a round about sort of way gave me my first taste of dominance. He was just someone i got acquainted with and spoke to for a little while, i’m not even sure how i would classify him. He’s a player and moves from sub to sub fairly quickly. But there was something to be learned i suppose. He gave me the first inkling of what it might be like to belong to someone in this way, just with a demonstration of a certain tone of voice and one word. He had told me he liked to train his subs to release on command, and then he said the word he liked to train them to in the tone he used. i thought then that i could very well be a candidate for that kind of thing if LP and i ever had the time or inclination to put into it. i wasn’t able to stay friends with him because he soon made it clear that he wanted more and i knew where my heart lay. Even if LP and i never progressed into the fascinating world of D/s She was the one i wanted and needed to be with. It didn’t matter that She was so far away and he was much closer. i still feel that way. No matter what, LP is the one i need in my life. We may have issues from time to time, but what couple doesn’t. We will work them out just as we have done for the past seven plus years. Sometimes i know i may feel a little restless, and we may both wonder if things are ever going to be the way either of us need them to be or even hope they could be. Still, i truly believe no one else could get me the way LP does.
After our conversation that day i was looking for something in the night table drawer and found this little mini tape recorder. i don’t know what made me do it but i took it out and put fresh batteries in it and checked the tape that was in it. There was Her voice, saved for me to listen to and mailed to me before we had even met in the flesh. i cried listening to the things she said, and a part of me mourned a little for the freshness of new love that all couples eventually lose, but my heart still jumped when She said She loved me and wanted me. i wonder if i still amuse Her.
Oh…on a side note. LP had made Tuesday my required day to notch my quota and i remembered! i had also earned myself a notch on Monday….so that makes my quota at eight down i think. i will check and verify that number tomorrow. i may even have another notch to report by then.
