Goldilocks Syndrome
i’m kind of at a loss lately. i don’t know what to write, or even if i want to. LP and i talk…and talk…and we atempt to make progress, but neither of us seem to get very far. We’ve been checking out FetLife and it’s a mine of information, and it’s entertaining as well. Sometimes though it makes me question myself more than it gives me answers. What is it about trying to figure out what you want that just leads to more questions? i feel like i’m in a dressing room trying on all kinds of different outfits and none of them are just right. i shall dub it Goldilocks Syndrome.
The thing is….i don’t want to settle. i don’t want to make myself get along without what i need in the spirit of compromise. Recently i told someone that sometimes we have to sacrifice something we hold dear in order to get or hold on to something bigger or more important. In his case it was true, but in thinking about my own situation…no…it isn’t right.
i am confused….i am sad….i feel so lost….
